The anguish of living


Oh, the Anguish of living,

Runs so deep through my veins,

They mark and trace those crossing lines,

And stain my hand with untold pain.

 

The anguish of living is like a book,

Whose covers bound all ache,

It has so many chapters deep,

Shadows and words, mirror my thoughts,

And I read, so addicted,

Until the familiarity, lulls me to sleep.

 

Chapter one,

Of the Anguish of living,

Makes us wonder why we’re here,

The curiosity of depression,

Is so unique,

Alas not many can understand,

And I hope they won’t too,

For the words of this chapter,

Are like a forbidden poem,

So lovely, and dark,

We’ll all want to hear.

 

Chapter two,

Makes us realize,

That this world is not as sweet as we thought,

We at first want to ignore,

And tell our hearts that its not real.

But how can we overlook,

These small, small instances.

The bitter unfairness,

Soon sprouts in our souls,

And then we see,

The glamoured world we created,

Has peeled away,

And left the harsh one in sight.

 

Chapter three,

We see, what do we want to live for?

Priorities, and goals, and secrets,

Some make us smile, some make us cry.

And often that once made us happy,

Is the reason we have that bittersweet hint,

On our face.

 

Chapter four,

Oh, how tough it’s so,

Is when we seek revenge,

We want this and we want that,

And we’re so confused.

We’re angry, betrayed, tired, worn,

Is all this really worth it?

 

 

I just want this book to end so bad,

For every page turned brings new nightmares,

And I relish in that obsessed pain,

As my flesh burns and my soul howls,

I stumble to my quiet shelter,

And take out a knife,

And cut a scar on my hand,

Like so many others,

Adorning my pale flesh,

And announcing their glory of pain.

Blood drops, and drip,

And I grin, the maniac one of wanting more,

Now these cuts are all I live for.

 

- Shriya Nauhria

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

War

Mother Earth

Dog - Man's Best friend